Everyday, and always I am thinking of dying.
It is almost impossible to get a gun in Japan.
If I had a gun. (as possible as big one)
I dont hesitate to shoot my head anymore.
My mother can not help me. even she want.
I have no one to talk!
I quit Facebook. So now I have only one friend I can send e-mail.
But He also ill and maybe he also always suffering his ill.
When I need help immediately, there is no one on this earth. yes, like lot of lonely people.

oh no no I never go to the hospital. They can help my life... life? what dose it mean helping life?
As my English friend said. no one can give me a reason to live.
cant even myself. And I have enough...too enough reasonS to shoot my born head...